New Beginnings and the New Year
New beginnings seems to be the theme in my life lately, and what better time to have that be happening then when it's actually a brand new year? I'm really glad that 2004 is over, because frankly it sucked badly. However I learned alot and I think I'm a better person because of it. I've learned the true character in alot of people that I know, some good and some bad. I've even learned somethings about myself. I guess I'm just really excited about what's going to happen in 2005. I'm not so nieve as to think that it's going to be all sunshine and blue skies, but I think it's going to be a good year. I wouldn't be suprised if there are alot of changes this year too, but that's ok. I've grown alot more confident in my relationship with God and my friends so I know that I won't be alone no matter what happens this year. I guess that's a good thing about going through hard times, you really see who's truely your friends. Going back to new beginnings, I was thinking that God can give you a "new year" whenever you want. That might sound really retarded, but it's kinda true. I mean think about it, people always like when it's New Years because they get to start over, clean slate. It's a whole new year for you to make the best of. Leave the past behind and go forward into the new year. Well God can do that for you whenever you want him too, just ask. That's pretty cool to me. And that's what seems to be happening with me. I've started over lately with alot of things, and God is a really big reason for that. Even just my attitude toward people and things have been changing lately. I guess in a way I'm really thankful that 2004 happened. Even though it was a hard year and it seemed like just when we got over one disaster another one hit, I know I've grown so much. For example some of my relationships with people have really been tried this year, there were ups and downs, but now those relationships have come through it and are even more secure then they were before. I would seriously hate to waste such hard times by not learning from them and not taking something away from it. I think that's what my moto for 2004 would have to be, learn from the crap that's going on so you don't have to go through the lesson again! lol I know 2005 will be a good year if I just follow God with all my heart, and that's what I plan to do.